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Today I'm told

Poem by Mike Crill

Today I'm told

Today I’m told I have asbestosis in both my lungs and that I am being sent home to die because there is no cure and asbestosis is my guarantee to death…

Today I am scared to what has become of me. I no longer can run nor walk very far. Life’s getting harder every day…

Today I’m saddened by those who love me as they try to hide the truth and their pain, knowing I shall soon die and that they will witness my every moment, until I die…

Today I feel so lost because my life depends on a tube that pumps oxygen into my lungs to keep me alive. Knowing beyond the end of that hose lies the end of my life…

Today I am mad because I can’t feed myself and someone has to bathe me, dress me and change my soiled pants. It’s times like these I wish I were dead…

Today I am in the hospital. I’ve become too much for my loved ones to endure and I am crying inside because I know when I leave here I’ll be in Heaven… 

Today is the worst, no feelings in my hands and feet, both are turning blue and non-stop morphine is all that’s left to ease my pain… 

Today I tried my hardest for my last breath, for my last touch of a hand in mine, as the last words I heard and the last words I spoke, “I love you…” 

Today … I’m in Heaven. No pain for ever more. It’s really beautiful here. And I shall await for you all to join me in eternal life and love…


God bless ,

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